Expiation

-------some reflections on a small accident

Today, we several students from HIT with some Seniors and some Chinese students from other schools went to Pulau Ubin to have fun. It took us a long time to get there because the organizer of this activity did not know the exact route to our destination. In the burning sun, we really suffered a lot but fortunately, we got there at last.

Without having our lunch, we went to rent some bicycles and could not wait to start our trip. Knowing myself quite well, I decided to rent a single-person bicycle instead of double-person one because my riding skill is really poor and I was afraid of hurting somebody else if I rode a same bicycle with him or her.

Soon, my poor skill was proved. I was riding down a little steep slope when I received a message. I was quite confused and started to think who it was sending me the message, and just at that moment, my bike was out of control. I was afraid of its high speed and unexperiencedly braked my bike suddenly. After a beautiful parabola, I fell on the ground heavily. The corner of my eyebrow was excoriated as well as my legs and hands. What is worse, my watch belt was broken and the frame of my glasses was distorted.

I had to return to Eton Hall much more early than the others, because I could not see things clearly with my distorted glasses. On the way back, I thought a lot about this small accident. Besides that I should be more careful next time, all of a sudden, I thought of God. Pain made me hurt but sober. Maybe it was God who punished me with such a little accident for my sins which were committed recently. I did envy somebody his intelligence; I did rage at somebody for no reason; I did cheat somebody for fun. I really did many wrong things which are not acceptable. I admitted my sins and repented having done them and accepted my punishment sincerely.

I am not a Christian, but actually, I started thinking thing in such way long time ago, even when I was a little boy. I always feel that there must be cause and effect hidden in a case. With our human knowledge, we may hardly explain it clearly and credibly, and by relating it to the unseen power from omnipotent God, I feel quite well and relaxed. Meanwhile, I can also see through my soul by thinking and seeking the cause of the misfortune befalled on me. Find out my defects and try to correct them, though it is not easy.

Thinking in such way has become my habit now, and I will keep it. After all, it is not a bad habit at least.