What about having a belief in God

I have been considering this issue for a long time, since the day I was taken to watch the performance hosted by the City Harvest and saw many people dancing and singing to praise the God with sincere happiness from the bottom of their hearts. Yes. I was indeed moved by the scene that all of the people in the huge theatre with candles in their hands and their eyes closed prayed at the same time, although a large amount of them didn’t believe in the God. There were some feelings holy in my heart at the very moment when I closed my eyes and prayed with the priest. The people who took us there and who played their best on the stage were definitely missionaries, I thought. But I didn't see that they could get any benefit from us, or from persuading us to join them. They were so warm-hearted and sincere that I doubted if they were going to get something from me for many times, however, I didn’t lose even a cent when I left there. Why? I was thinking hard but got no answer.

I was taught that there is no God or something like that in the world when I was in China, just like most of the Chinese children. Despite that, the elder people always have their own beliefs nevertheless. For example, my father believes in Buddhism devoutely. We have a buddhistic sculpture in my house and he with my mother will go to the Buddhist temples every Chinese New Year to pray for health, wealth and good luck in the coming new year. It is him who told me that man should have his own belief which will back and support him whenever he is sad or desperate. I was too young to fully understand him at that time, so I just insisted that all the Gods are false and imaginary as I was taught in the school.

As time moved on, I felt more respectful to the unseen power which I thought might affect our life. I changed my attitude to that I preferred to admit that the Gods do exist in the world and respect them while I still didn’t believe that. I feared that the Gods who may exist in the world would punish me if I showed my disrespect to them. But there was not anything happening which I saw with my own eyes that could convinced me that there really were Gods on earth. In the other words, I didn’t receive any messages from the Gods.

Now, I change my mind again, after I came to Singapore, where people are more westernized and many of them are Christians, and saw the strong belief in the God which I have never seen before except in movies. I realize that nowadays, the religion is not what barbarians used to explain the strange happenings they had no idea about. The religion is a kind of faith where you can repose your soul, and just like what my father said, it will back you and give you the power when you need it. Even the most intellegent and strong person on earth will be helpless one day and he will also need the power which religion will offer, so that is why many Christians I know are highly educated, some of who are even PhDs.

Yet, I haven’t got the message from the God. But I’ve grown up and have my own opinions. Maybe, oneday I will get the message, or maybe, never will I. No matter how the things will be, I will surely have a belief. Perhaps in the God.

JiangXiaoning(Arthur)